Ok. I should start by announcing that the song (played by Vank for those interested) has nothing to do with this post. Firstly because the song is about love and this post has no clue about what it is. Many people ask me about what I am doing here (in Russia for those interested), my friends ask me to write to them, one at a time or all at once. My inner voice is asking me also to write down everything happening in order for me not to forget. And the millions of thoughts in my head don’t let me sometimes enjoy the million things I am living. So I decided to open my blog. Reopen it. Start writing. Anything.
I am in KFC, in the center of Ufa, the place I am in for already 2 weeks and until 7th of October. I am in Russia, yes. And I will be here until 17th of October, after visiting Sankt Petersburg and Moscow together with Yusuf, an Indonesian guy that is here with the same purpose as me.
Ok. Let me take it from the top. I wanted to change something around me. I entered AIESEC and thought this was the way to do it. I decided a few months ago to travel to a country where they needed volunteers like me. I decided to educate young people regarding HIV. I decided to go to Russia because I wanted to challenge myself, I wanted something hard and go to a country where they could use enthusiastic volunteers. And I wanted to experience the Russian spirit just the way I read about it in Anna Karenina. I admit, I also wanted badly to see Moscow J So one dream will be fulfilled.
So here I am, in Ufa, surrounded by young people just like me, from Ukraine, Indonesia, Malaysia, China, Turkey, Poland, Japan. And alone, despite that. Well, not exactly alone but on my own. I am learning again how to communicate (because I don’t understand absolutely anything from Cyrillic letters written on buses, shops, food). I am learning how to cook, how to manage my money and find alone my way home. I am learning again how to make friends and be myself with those around me. I am learning for the first time how to not get attached to people, hot not to need to get attached. I learn to do what I want, when I want it. To stand up and not get influenced.
I try to find substance in what I do, in the conversations I have. I find out life stories from people I just met. I try to get to know them better. God, I try to overpass the annoying language barrier. But some people you just feel, no words are needed. Just their smile and their look. I really believe so.
I feel responsible for Romania from here, far away. I feel responsible to represent Romania. I start even to appreciate my country more. I danced ciuleandra in the main square in Ufa, together with local people, during an cultural festival where I talked more about Romania that I ever did in my life. And I loved every second of it! And I want us Romanians to pay attention to what we say and how we say it, because we have an amazing country. It’s all about branding.
I miss home. (amazing thing about Romania: dor has no literal translation. It’s just a specific Romanian feeling). This missing feeling is though bearable. Which is good. Because I wanted this experience to be about me and about what I want to do. I wanted to fulfill my purpose here. What if sometimes you feel alone? Enjoy every emotion. Enjoy yourself. And after this you will be able to really enjoy everything around you.
Hm. I’m smiling :)
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